While my usual self criticism is always at play,
it’s fantastically heightened by the ridiculous crushing of my ego.
Feeling useless to myself is something you’ll get used to.
Feeling inadequate to everyone else is another thing.
The only way to protect it all - I don’t care.
I guess I don’t care about much, but I do care about being alone. Feeling completely by myself, always.
Everyone shakes it off.
You have no idea.